A Lonesome Sunset

You told me you would like to go watching sunset.

You did not want me to go with you.

I knew you needed to be alone for a time.

I hoped you could hear what I’d muttered

through the melancholy wind

in a lonesome sunset.

孤單看夕陽下山, 或在水平線隱沒, 是非常難得的人生經驗. 看到入神, 自然會思索千頭萬緒的過往, 百般滋味於是雲集腦海, 苦思至忘我, 神遊太虛於九重天外. 正所謂 “假作真時真亦假,無為有處有還無”. 好不容易才返回只有現實的一句: 夕陽無限好, 只是近黃昏.

“只是” 兩個字, 隱約帶點不依不捨, 婉惜無奈的心情, 明天難道沒得看了? 黃昏近, 夜也不遠了吧! 夜裡晚風吹起溫柔, 百物寢息, 只要不心煩氣燥, 只要不“寢息何時忘, 沉憂日盈積”, 只要銘心刻骨記著:青山原不老, 為雪白頭.

不知由哪個時候, 哪支筆開始, 只是近黃昏同時拿來比喻人已到了暮年. 人老了, 只是兩個字是想不得用不上的; 心平氣和, 氣度安詳, 寬宏大量和藹可親的老人如今少見. 只是如此, 只是那樣的未老先衰較多見; 只是本身的尖酸刻薄, 斤斤計較鐵公雞卻偏偏不知道, 甚至認為, 人老了都是如出一轍. 洞悉世情後而不曉憐憫, 常露不屑一切的五官, 面貌通常十分可厭. 懂得唸流水無情, 潮到空城頭盡白, 離歌一曲怨殘陽, 樣子會可親一些! 醫學日新月異, 用藥可能是另類展望. 但那年齡才算是老年呢? 目前, 最好讓他們上一課 “新世紀年齡計算方法”.

有伴同去, 與友同行, 看夕陽, 其實都應該相離一角, 各自感受! 時間到了, 與友人交換個默契的眼色, 各自回家, 天涯海角, 願友誼永不變色, 不要成全了那句: All school-days’ friendship, childhood innocence?

或給伴兒來個擁抱, 回程路上, 兩口子喁喁細語, 她撒嬌先開句: 落霞與孤鶩齊飛,他胡言瞎扯秋水共長天好色, 她不依, 就往他腰頭搔去, 對方怕癢, 以後治之有法, 誓要逼到求饒方休! 他反擊, 兩方都怕, 勢均力敵, 那麼先求饒吧, 弱者每會得到多些憐愛. 對方如果溫柔. 想對方來多點溫柔, 也要先學求饒之道.

對付媽咪也一樣; 對付爸爸, 先看他可有思維, 他有, 考他殺悶思維. 如果他在看 Karl Marx’s Social & Political Thought, 放過他吧! 他徘徊在社會主義與經濟主義的緊張關頭上, 已煩得要命, 請溫柔為他唸幾句寒武紀:

躍起之後
勢須下落
而今問題在
你如何去平伏那心跳

About NgTom

Three fundamental constituents support my life; they are literature, philosophy and photography. And I am rather glad that I don't really need them to sustain my living. But, it only implies my incompetent.
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31 Responses to A Lonesome Sunset

  1. 庭风 says:

    果然是千头万绪,天马行空,人生百态。。。

  2. Stunningly beautiful, NgTom, both the image and sad words of one left behind.

  3. krikitarts says:

    Very reflective thoughts and photo, Tom. Well done.

  4. 🙂 Quiet Sunset–appreciated!

  5. QQ says:

    年轻人就是好啊,不像俺老鸟喔,木有情愫了呢~

  6. 哦~ 还是英文简明
    或许~ 内藏有玄机 — 《久阴真经》 😀

  7. exiledprospero says:

    Great cityscape accentuated by a curtain of clouds.

  8. Sunshine says:

    A beautiful city scene with touching words… enjoyed your creativity. 🙂

  9. seekraz says:

    I know you said in the comments that the one left behind wasn’t sad…but that’s the way the words feel, or maybe it’s the way that we expect them to be…. So many possibilities in this one, Tom…very well done. I wish you well….

    • NgTom says:

      The one may be soppy…
      The post is rather sentimental, I must admit.
      I appreciate your kind concern.
      I’m doing fine…Thanks.
      Give you good night.

      • seekraz says:

        Sentimentality is not a bad thing, though…and I’m glad that you’re doing fine. 🙂

        I give you good night, as well, Tom…thank you….

  10. very beautiful words.

  11. ladyfi says:

    A little melancholy – but with that stunning view it’s hard to feel too alone, I hope.

  12. rayfausel says:

    liked the poem a lot

  13. A says:

    有一點愁思

  14. 在这篇情绪文字的门外站了很久,今天才想写字,孤独寂寞并非是人人能拥有晓得的真实幸福和其乐趣。很喜欢这首心情小诗。想必有一天我会挪用一下的。这就先告谢了。谢谢您。

  15. NgTom says:

    這篇中文寫了多年, 也曾放在其他地方.
    英文那幾句是即興鬧著玩之作, 胡言亂語, 不值一晒.

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